THE WISH

 

O that I were an angel, and could have

The wish of mine heart,

That I might go forth and speak

With the trump of God,

With a voice to shake the earth,

And cry repentance unto every people!

(Alma 29:1)

Is there a more poetic scripture in the Book of Mormon than this?

Alma affirmed that God grants unto men according to their desire (Alma 29:4). Consider the process of fulfilment of desires and how they affect our personal development and eventually determine our eternal blessings:

“Desires….become real determinants, even when, with pitiful naivete, we do not really want the consequences of our desires…..therefore, what we insistently desire, over time, is what we will eventually become and what we will receive in eternity….Righteous desires need to be relentless, therefore, because, said President Brigham Young, ‘the men and women, who desire to obtain seats in the celestial kingdom, will find that they must battle every day’ (in Journal of Discourses, 11:14). Therefore, true Christian soldiers are more than weekend warriors…..” (Neal A. Maxwell, “According to the Desire of Our Hearts”, October 1996 GC)

It is clear that educating and cultivating our righteous desire means doing everything possible that is our part in its fulfilment. The cultivation of Alma’s desire began with something extremely personal – born out of his own painful repentance and godly sorrow, Alma came to sorrow greatly and continually for the sins of the people (Alma 7:5; 8:10,14; 31:1,2,30,31; 35:15). This sorrowing evolved into relentless missionary service so much so that ‘he could not rest’ when his sons went to preach ‘and he also went forth’ (Alma 43:1). I am also certain that his personal spiritual preparation was such that the time came for him to be given to speak with the tongue of angels (2 Nephi 32:2).

Alma’s desire to be an angel preaching repentance was no doubt realised past his natural mortal life. We are told that he was translated, even like Moses ‘to be a ministering angel unto many planets’ until the time of resurrection (Alma 45:18,19; Deuteronomy 34:5,6; Joseph Smith, History of the Church, 4:210)

Alma, who was once one of the 'very vilest of sinners' (Mosiah 28:4) became Alma who led the Nephite armies in battle, who sat naked with Amulek in dungeons, who was spat upon by the unrepentant, who dumbfounded an anti-christ, who baptised thousands of souls unto repentance (Alma 4:4,5), and who the Lord in the end took up unto himself (Alma 45:19).  This is where Alma’s wish of the heart took him.

 

ODE TO ALMA:

He stood between you

And the gaping jaws of hell,

He cherished your soul

And snatched you from everlasting

Misery of the damned.

He planted the seed of faith

In your willing heart

But you, you tilled the ground

And nurtured the tree of faith

Growing the fruit, so exquisite and sweet.

So heavy in your overflowing arms

You sought to feed the spiritually maimed.

He who stood at the gates of Hell

Your soul to save

Gathered the fruit,

Your path to His throne to pave.

- CATHRYNE ALLEN 

(Art: O That I Were An Angel by Jay Bryant Ward)

THE LORD'S BELOVED

 

 

Have you ever wished to have a title added to your name that would describe your relationship with God? Abraham had 'a friend of God' attached to his name. What spiritual title would you like to be known by?  Sally, the disciple of Christ? Mary, the seeker of truth? Richard, the upholder of faith? Simon, the warrior of God?

My favourite person from the four Gospels in the New Testament is John, 'the disciple whom Jesus loved', as he referred to himself in his book. Jesus called him 'the son of thunder' (Mark 3:17) but he was and is best known as John The Beloved. I have a desire to meet John The Beloved because I think I could more intensely feel the Saviour's love just by simply being in his presence. 

When I refer to John I simply refer to him as The Beloved. I am in awe of his name. Imagine having “The Beloved”  tagged onto your name because it is so obvious to everyone that the Saviour loves you so much. This is the title that I want.

If you study John’s writing, it is impossible not to see the love. In his book, The Beloved records of the discourse on love that Jesus delivered at the Last Supper.  His account of this discourse is related to the Sacrament and our remembrance of the Saviour and mentions love 22 times.

John records the Saviour giving an amazing promise to all who are motivated through their love for Him to obey His commandments. The promise is that they can enjoy the literal companionship of the Father and the Son in this life (John 14:23). This is an amazing promise.

None of the other gospels record this discourse on love or such an important promise, only John; the disciple who outran Peter to the sepulchre with a pounding heart hoping against hope that the rumours were true, that He whom He loved, lived again (John 20:2-4).

Doctrine and Covenants Section 7 gives a clear picture of the love between John and the Saviour. In His communication with John and Peter, the Saviour asked: “John, my beloved, what desirest thou? For if you shall ask what you will, it shall be granted unto you. And I said unto him: Lord, give unto me power over death, that I may live and bring souls unto you”  (D&C 7:1,2).  That’s love. There is no greater.

Some 90 years after Christ’s death, during the bleakest period of Church history, John sat on the island of Patmos, alone, an exiled last apostle of the Lord Jesus Christ; Peter having been crucified, Paul beheaded, Bartholemew skinned alive, Thomas and Matthew run through with spears. By the time of Patmos, the history of the Church included the lining of Nero's colonnade with crucified Christians and the savagery of the mobs screaming for blood in the Coliseum and the Circus Maximus." (The Life and Teachings of Jesus and His Apostles, p 449).

Something magical happened to John at Patmos. One Sabbath day the Saviour appeared to him and revealed to him all that will happen on earth until He returns. It was as if the Saviour was saying to him: "You will be here a long time and you will sorrow for the sins of the world, but be comforted John because I am coming back and when I come, I will 'wipe away all tears....and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain...." (Revelation 21:4).

At the Church Conference in June 1831, Joseph prophesied that John was then among the Lost Ten Tribes of Israel, “to prepare them for their return from their long dispersion, to again possess the land of their fathers” (in History of the Church, 1:176). He who lives and sorrows for the sins of the world will have some stories to tell…..

 

I long to see the paths he wanders

To and fro the length of the earth;

I wish to wipe his brow

At the end of the day

To uphold the magnitude of his holy work.

Let me hold him close

And soothe his heavy heart

As the time for final gathering nears,

And let me gather in my cupped hands

The hallowed drops of The Beloved’s tears.

- CATHRYNE ALLEN 

(Art: Hope by Liz Lemon Swindle)