THE MERCIFUL MESSIAH

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures; he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
(Psalm 23)


The book of Psalms is the longest book of the Bible and is filled with testimony and doctrine. It is also a collection of 150 songs of  Israelite hymns praising the God of Israel. Seventy three of these psalms are attributed to David with the central theme of mercy. His psalms are a guide for any penitent sinner who repents with sincerity of heart and seeks forgiveness. David's psalms are a clear indications that David knew the nature of the God of Israel and His infinite mercy. He appeals to this mercy which he knows is central to the Saviour's character because of his loving kindness. David repeatedly uses these two attributes hand in hand helping us see the Saviour in a much softer light than as the vengeful God of the Old Testament. In the hymnal sense, his appeals to the Saviour's merciful nature, become a voice of praise, such as: "Remember, O Lord, thy tender mercies and thy loving kindness..." (Psalm 25:6) and "Hear me, O Lord; for thy loving kindness is good: turn unto me according to the multitude of thy tender mercies" (Psalm 69:16). If we did not know that the Lord was a possessor of loving kindess, we could never believe that He was merciful and could as such, grant us forgiveness of our sins.

David knew that the only place for his forgiveness was in the Messiah of the world, who had through his righteousness achieved perfection. He knew that his reward for his imperfect mortality, like ours, should be less than perfect, if it is based solely on our earthly performance. David therefore shows us through his bold request, "Deliver me in thy righteousness....." (Psalm 71:2) a doctrinally appropriate and essential way to importune the Saviour of all mankind if we are to inherit "more than we deserve" (Philip Allred, Lesson 25, "Let Every Thing That Hath Breath Praise the Lord, Meridian Magazine).  This is exactly how Elder Dallin H. Oaks defines mercy: "To achieve my eternal goals, I need more than I deserve...If justice is exactly (the punishment) one deserves, then mercy is more benefit than one deserves....The Atonement is the means by which justice is served and mercy is extended" (Sins, Crimes and Atonement, address given to CES, 7 Feb. 1992, Philip Allred, Lesson 25, Meridian Magazine).

Like David, we should all desire the righteousness of the only sinless person who died that we might be saved, weighing in on our side of the scales of justice. He should be the person we would want standing by our side at the judgment bar when we account for our sins. It is only in this way that we will be able to receive all our inheritance as children of God for our merits alone will not guarantee this reward. It is imperative therefore that we are convinced of His loving kindness and His infallible and infinite mercy. Without it we will blindly wander through this mortality without hope for this life is but a drop in a bucket before we face the vastness of eternity. To deserve this miraculous mercy, it is required of us to give the Lord the only thing we can truly give, "a broken spirit: a broke and a contrite heart" (Psalm 51:17). In return the Lord will "blot out our transgressions" and "wash us thoroughly from our iniquity, and cleanse us from our sin" (Psalm 51:1-2).

The scriptures are replete with examples and declarations of Saviour's mercy that he extends to us through his loving kindness. To know Him is to know that He is The Merciful Messiah. He who has numbered all his sheep and has layed down his life for them, extends mercy when mercy is sought, "...for all this his anger is not turned away, but his hand is stretched out still" (Isaiah 10:4). To know the God of Israel is to know that He will one day gather us and because of our willingness to have Him be our God, 'lead us unto living fountains of waters: and He shall wipe away all tears from our eyes' (Rev 7:17). Is this not a God who deserves our utmost devotion? Is this not a God who inspires in us a longing to 'sing redeeming love' in praise of Him who has delivered us from the bands of death? (Alma 5:9, Alma 26:13, D&C 138:12).  What happens when we sing the words of praise to God whom we love, is as real as what happens when we are on bended knee, "For my soul delighteth in the song of the heart; yea, the song of the righteous is a prayer unto me, and it shall be answered with a blessing upon their heads" (D&C 25:12).  The scriptures repeatedly admonish true disciples of Christ to sing praises to Him and other members of the Godhead for one day we will join that heavenly choir to sing eternal praises to Him who has bought us with a price (1 Cor 6:20), 'a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief' (Isa 53:3), yet a God who is 'merciful and gracious, longsuffering, and abundant in goodness and truth' (Exodus 34:6). Mormon attests to this truth when he says: "And he hath brought to pass the redemption of the world, whereby he that is found guiltless before him at the judgment day hath it given unto him to dwell in the presence of God in his kingdom, to sing ceaseless praises with the choirs above, unto the Father, and unto the Son, and unto the Holy Ghost, which are one God, in a state of happiness which hath no end" (Mormon 7:7).

The Saviour desires to 'encircle us in the arms of His love' (D&C 6:20). It is because of His love that He is merciful. Even though He is a God of majesty who 'has all power, all wisdom, and all understanding' (Alma 26:35), 'Alpha and Omega, Christ the Lord....the beginning and the end, the Redeemer of the world' (D&C 19:1), yet 'He is a merciful Being' (Alma 26:35) worthy of praise for his loving kindness and infinite sacrifice for the sins of the world. May we worship Him with the voice of praise and in Him find the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords that we might be one day worthy to be in his presence for ever and ever.


Praise ye the Lord. 
Praise God in his sanctuary; praise him in the firmament of his power. 
Praise him for his mighty acts; praise him according to his excellent greatness. 
Praise him with the timbrel and dance; praise him with stringed instruments and organs. 
Praise him upon the loud cymbals; praise him upon the high sounding cymbals. Let every thing that hath breath praise the Lord. 
Praise ye the LORD. 
(Psalms 150:1-6)

A FALL FROM GRACE, A FALL FROM GLORY

"Do we emphasize the David who killed Goliath, or the David who killed Uriah? Should we view him as the servant who refused to lift his hand against the Lord's anointed, or as the Lord's anointed who lifted his hand against a faithful and loyal servant? Was his life a tragedy or a triumph?" (Old Testament Student Manual, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, p 287)

David's accomplishments were not only great but they were great accomplishments. David did three things for temporal Israel that typify what Christ will do for spiritual Israel.  Following Saul's death, Israel's kingdom was divided in two for seven years. The tribe of Judah accepted David as their king and the rest of the tribes of Israel were ruled by Ishbosheth, one of the sons of Saul, whom Abner, Saul's commanding general set up as the new king (2 Sam 2:8-9). Despite being anointed as Israel's king, by Samuel, the prophet, David refrained from taking action against Ishbosheth in honour of the covenant he made with Jonathan not to retaliate against Saul's family when he came to power. Following Ishbosheth's murder (2 Samuel 3) David showed great wisdom and judgment by executing the two men responsible. This brought him into favour with the tribes under Ishbosheth and ultimately united all twelve tribes into one nation under the ultimate leadership of God. Secondly, David succeeded in winning the whole extent of the promised land for the covenant people. For the first time the chosen people of the Lord controlled the whole land promised to Abraham's posterity nearly a thousand years earlier. Thirdly, David established Zion or Jerusalem as the spiritual and political center of Israel. Under David's reign Israel reached its golden age. Never before had Israel achieved such heights of power nor did they ever again. (Old Testament Student Manual, p 291)

Despite all his great accomplishments David made one very big error of judgment. He became very comfortable as a monarch of a successful kingdom. This comfort zone became detrimental to his ability to endure to the end. As his kingdom ran like a well oiled machine, his approach to his kingly duties became somewhat lax. "At the time when kings go forth to battle" (2 Sam 11:1) David chose to send Joab and all Israel to fight Ammonites while he remained in Jerusalem, strolling upon the roof of his house to cool off in the heat of the night. This was David's first and big mistake that began his gradual demise into depths of sin from which he could not extricate himself. Sin seldom happens in one giant leap. As Elder Boyd K. Packer says: "I don't think anyone steps off a precipice into the depths of immorality and apostasy. They slide down the slippery sides of the chasm...." (Improvement Era. May 1970, p. 7)  It would seem that David didn't think he needed his armour of God on such a hot night while he was lounging and relaxing away from battle but the adversary doesn't take sabbaticals and he took advantage of David's lack of protection. David spotted a temptation bigger than the Goliath he slew so valiantly some years prior. Not turning away once he happened to see a woman washing herself his gaze lingered enough to discover she was beautiful. Not content with leaving it there, he inquired about her. This should have stopped him in his tracks for the reply he got was that her name was Bathsheba (which means "daughter of the covenant") and that she was married to a man called Uriah (which means "Jehovah is my light"). These two names alone should have lifted him to a higher plain but 'his casualness in righteous things had dulled his spiritual senses' (Bruce Satterfield, Lesson 24,  "Create In Me A Clean Heart", Meridian Magazine). The adultery that happened next was tragic but what happened after it was devastating. David dared to believe that he could conceal his sin, not just from Israel but from God. As he devised one plan after another to cover his sin he developed a treacherous character that led him to the loss of his salvation. When he failed to entice Uriah to spend time with his wife so that the conceived child could be passed off as his, David allowed the spirit of murder to enter his heart. He devised a plan that would insure Uriah's death at the front lines of battle and took Bathsheeba to be his wife. At what point do you think David could have stopped himself from advancing towards the edge of the precipice? None of this need have happened if David was at the right place at the right time, namely, out on the battle field instead of the roof of his house.

David had many wives and concubines which were given to him of the Lord by the hand of Nathan, the prophet (D&C 132:39). It was Nathan who was sent to prick David's conscience regarding the one wife that was not given to him of God and which 'displeased the Lord' (2 Sam 11:27). Nathan recounted a parable to David in these words:  "There were two men in one city; the one rich, and the other poor. The rich man had exceeding many flocks and herds: But the poor man had nothing, save one little ewe lamb, which he had bought and nourished up: and it grew up together with him, and with his children; it did eat of his own meat, and drank of his own cup, and lay in his bosom, and was unto him as a daughter. And there came a traveller unto the rich man, and he spared to take of his own flock and of his own herd, to dress for the wayfaring man that was come unto him; but took the poor man's lamb, and dressed it for the man that was come to him" (2 Sam 12:2-4). Perhaps the most sombre words spoken to anyone in the scriptures were Nathan's words to David as he responded to David's outrage about the rich man who took the poor man's lamb and prepared it as a meal to a weary traveller whilst sparing so many lambs that he owned. At David's insistence that the man should be put to death for such a selfish act, Nathan's response to him cut deep as he said: "Thou art the man" (2 Sam 12:7). Nathan then continued to recount all that the God of Israel had done for David, pointing out his gross sin of murder and prophesying all the calamities that would befall him. He would not be put to death as the law required but he was given a worse punishment than that. The child born to David and Bathsheeba died and David lived to see many of his wives and sons turn against him and much of his household turn to infighting and blood.

Unlike Saul, David acknowledged where he had gone wrong and suffered godly sorrow that brought him to repentance. His sins, however, were grievous and even though he will eventually receive forgiveness in the sense that all sins are forgiven except the sin against the Holy Ghost, the forgiveness he will receive will not assure him axaltation. In the LDS Bible Dictionary we read: "Like Sault he was guilty of grave crimes, but unlike Saul, he was capable of true contrition and was therefore able to find forgiveness, except in the murder of Uriah. As a consequence David is still unforgiven but he received a promise that the Lord would not leave his soul in hell. He will be resurrected at the end of Millennium", meaning he will receive the telestial glory. Is this not a tragedy of gigantic proportion? A great man who accomplished so much, who had unwavering faith in God, who stood to remain a king throughout all eternity, will be resurrected to the lowest kingdom of glory. Joseph Smith said that David could get forgiveness only through hell but that his soul would not be left there. The question begs to be asked, who wishes to spend a term in hell with the devil before being cleansed from sin? If you are sitting on the edge of the precipice pushing the boundaries every which way, as far as you can, move. The cost of your falling will far outweigh the thrill and excitement of the edge.

David was promised by God that his throne shall be established through Christ forever, that he would become the progenitor of the Messiah and Saviour of the world (2 Sam 7:16). Jesus thus came into mortality as a descendant of David, through his mother, and as an heir to his throne both physically and spiritually. Elder James E. Talmage explains it like this: "At the time of the Saviour's birth, Israel was ruled by alien monarchs. The rights of the royal Davidic family were unrecognized; and the ruler of the Jews was an appointee of Rome. Had Judah been a free an independent nation, ruled by her rightful sovereign, Joseph the carpenter would have been her crowned king; and his lawful successor to the throne would have been Jesus of Nazareth, the King of the Jews". (Jesus The Christ, p. 87)

So David, a man of greatness who left such a huge mark on the world and who became an ancestor to the most important figure in human history turned out to be a study in tragedy. As we study this tragedy we cannot fail to recognise that the fall from grace is extremely easy. Sometimes we think we can handle a little temptation, that we are bigger than the pull of sin, or that we are strong enough to stand in the side lines and just watch but if you give in to the desire to watch, you will eventually have the desire to do.  And sometimes we don't like to be regimented by the Church and we allow our 'right for freedom' to loosen that armour of God and it starts to slip and eventually it becomes a nuisance to us and we remove it altogether endangering our ability to endure to the end for no matter how great you started off, what matters more is how great you end up.

It is never too late to turn around and go the other way. The road of repentance might be rough and steep as opposed to the smooth road that requires nothing of us and that leads to nowhere. You might get a few blisters and a few cuts but if you press on, by the time you come full circle you will be a possessor of a humble heart worthy of the redemptive power which can make you clean. The Saviour waits ready to forgive and to encircle you in the arms of his love.

What win I if I gain the thing I seek?
A dream, a breath, a froth of fleeting joy?
Who buys a minute's myrth to wail a week
Or sells eternity to get a toy?
For one sweet grape, who would the vine destroy?
Or what fond beggar but to touch the crown,
Would with the scepter straight be stricken down.

- William Shakespeare

THE MADNESS OF SAUL

This is a very sad story of a fallen king who allowed jelousy to corrupt his heart and who invited the forces of evil to torment his soul. Having already lost God's favour through disobedience, Saul, the first king of Israel, continued on the down hill slide to self-destruction. Saul, who was born great and was above all Israel in stature and goodness ended up a bitter man not worthy of his kingdom and feared by all, even his family.

David having found favour with the king of Israel by slaying Goliath, was taken away from his family and installed into the king's household. So impeccable was his behaviour that he was beloved by all Judah and Israel (1 Sam 18:16). And so obedient was he to any task that he was given by the king that Saul placed him in charge of his army (1 Sam 18:5). It naturally followed that David had great success in his battles with the Philistines and Saul was soon overshadowed by his popularity (1 Sam 18:6,7). Saul perceived this popularity as a threat to himself and his kingdom. In his mind, praise for another somehow diminished him in the eyes of the people. Saul, who had everything, who was the king of Israel, chosen by God, under whose command armies moved, who had all power and influence in the land, wanted more. From the moment Saul heard the women chanting "Saul hath slain his thousands, and David his ten thousands" (1 Sam 18:7), he hated David and became exceedingly jelous of him (1 Sam 18:8,9).

Saul's good qualities and his ability to rule with wisdom were totally subverted as he allowed jelousy to consume him. What would seem a rather harmless emotion became a deadly murderous obsession. He makes it his life mission to kill David even risking the life of his son Jonathan (1 Sam 20:33) and willing to annihilate a whole city (1 Sam 23:10) to accomplish his purpose. How did Saul come to sink so low? Armies could not have toppled him if he had remained righteous. Only one person had the power to destroy him and that person was himself. Jelousy, a seemingly harmless emotion proved to be not so harmless after all. The scriptures record that Saul came to be overcome by an evil spirit continually (1 Sam 18:10, 19:9). Through the life of Saul we can see the author of all jelousy and envy, he who sought to elevate himself above all else, not wanting anyone to have what he had. The father of all lies would have us believe that somebody else's greatness diminishes our own and that blessings others receive means blessings taken away from us. He convinces us so well that self-seeking is the path to abundance and therefore happiness. Elder Holland cites one observer who summed this up well:

"In a world that constantly compares people, ranking them as more or less intelligent, more or less attractive, more or less successful, it is not easy to really believe in a (divine) love that does not do the same. When I hear someone praised, it is hard not to think of myself as less praiseworthy; when I read about the goodness and kindness of other people, it is hard not to wonder whether I myself am as good and kind as they; and when I see trophies, rewards, and prizes being handed out to special people, I  cannot avoid asking myself why that didn't happen to me." (Meridian Magazine, "The Lord Be Between Thee and Me Forever", p 2)

What leads us to these assumptions and feelings of want? Elder Holland elaborates:

"As others seem to grow larger in our sight, we think we must therefore be smaller. So unfortunately, we occasionally act that way. How does this happen, especially when we wish so much that it would not? I think one reason is that every day we see allurements of one kind or another that tell us what we have is not enough. Someone or something is forever telling us we need to be more handsome or more wealthy, more applauded or more admired than we see ourselves as being. We are told we haven't collected enough possessions or gone to enough fun places. We are bombarded with the message that on the world's scale of things we have been weighed in the balance and found wanting. Some days it is as if we have been locked in a cubicle of a great and spacious building where the only thing on the TV is a never-ending soap opera entitled Vain Imaginations." (Elder Jeffrey R Holland, Meridian Magazine, "The Lord Be Between Thee and Me Forever", p. 2)

Opposite to Satan's plan to make us greedy and self-absorbed is the Saviour's plan to nurture in us the ability to become Zion people. A Zion person seeks the welfare of others and not just his own. A Zion person is one that is bound in love to his fellow beings. A very good example of this comes from the same story as Saul. It is the friendship and bond of love between his son Jonathan and David, the future king of Israel. Where his father sought to slay David, Jonathan sought to preserve his life. Jonathan was the next in line to the throne and his father warned him that as long as David lived, his kingdom will not be his (1 Sam 20:31). Jonathan however, was more interested in being faithful than in being a king. He shows that faithfulness through his friendship with David by saying: "....the Lord be between thee and me forever" (1 Sam 20:23). Whereas Saul, in cahoots with an evil spirit, seeks to take away David's life, Jonathan fueled by his faithfulness to God, seeks to preserve it. Jonathan and David share a common bond of faithfulness which binds them in friendship and love forever. Because of this bond of love, they seek each other's welfare rather than their own. The only author of such love can be God. David too shows his faithfulness to God by resisting an opportunity that delivers Saul into his hands and refuses to take his life reasoning that Saul is anointed of the Lord and that there is no evil nor transgression in his hand and would therefore not commit such wickedness (1 Sam 24:6,11,12). Had David murdered Saul in the cave in which he found him asleep he would have obtained the kingdom through the evil design of murder and not be given it by the hand of the Lord. If that had been the case, that would have been the beginning of David's demise. He could have rid himself of Saul and his dogmatic murderous pursuit forever but he would also have succumbed to the same hatred and evil that came to possess the heart of Saul and would therefore become lost.  David was more interested in respecting and loving the Lord than in self-seeking and because of it he became the next king of Israel.

What blessings that come from serving others will we miss out on if we engage ourselves in self-seeking and elevating ourselves above our fellowman? Whether it is being better, having better or doing better than someone else, it is all the same. It all leads to pride which robs us of the godly nature which we need to be of benefit to our fellowman. Self-seeking has no future. It is of this world only for in celestial kingdom there will be no one that is more or has more than someone else. It will be a perfect existence with equality of heart and mind and possession. The only children of God who will be able to abide this existence will be those who love others as themselves. This is what we are here to learn most of all, to love. Without this love we cannot pass through the gates of eternity and have eternal life with God. The author of this love beckons us to follow Him and to 'pray unto the Father with all the energy of heart, that we may be filled with this love, which he hath bestowed upon all who are the true followers of his Son..." (Moroni 7:48).

THE GREAT ONES

I am tired of sailing my little boat

Far inside of the harbour bar;

I want to be out where the big ships float –

Out in the deep, where the great ones are!

And should my frail craft prove too slight

For storms that sweep those wide seas o’er,

Better go down in the stirring fight

Than drowse to death by the sheltered shore!

     - Daisy Rhinehart

I imagine this is what we would have been like in our pre-existence, not content to stay intelligences without form and purpose. We wanted godhood and we accepted the price we had to pay to get it. The sheltered shore is never enough for the ones that want to be great. The truly great ones want the storm and the stirring fight and the grandeur that comes with victory. The truly great ones wanted to risk everything in order to gain everything. They are formidable souls of men that did not flinch in battle with the opposing forces who wanted to keep us in the sheltered shore. They stood firm, believed and accepted when the Father said:

"All that I have I desire to give you - not only my wealth, but also my position and standing among men. That which I have I can easily give you, but that which I am you must obtain for yourself. You will qualify for your inheritance by learning what I have learned and by living as I have lived.  I will give you the laws and principles by which I have acquired my wisdom and stature. Follow my example, mastering as I have mastered, and you will become as I am, and all that I have will be yours." (Elder Dallin H. Oaks, The Challenge to Become, New Era Aug 2002)

In William Wordsworth's poetic words, we came to this earth 'trailing clouds of glory....from God who is our home' (Ode On Intimations of Immortality), leaving the memory of our greatness behind the veil, leaving all that we once held dear but determined to return ever triumphant and more glorious than when we left. Now in mortality we know very little of who we truly are because most of the time we do not seek to know our former selves. President Lorenzo Snow taught that we can come to know exactly who we are just as the Saviour did. He taught that "Jesus was a god before he came into the world and yet His knowledge was taken from Him. He did not know His former greatness, neither do we know what greatness we had attained to before we came here". He also taught that it was revealed to the Saviour who He was and 'for what purpose He was in the world. The glory and power He possessed before He came into the world was made known unto Him" (Conference Report, April 1901). We too can come to possess such knowledge and revelation for the Father can tell us all things through the power of His Spirit.

Consider Brigham Young's words on this subject : "I want to tell you, each and every one of you, that you are well acquainted with God our heavenly Father, or the great Elohim. You are all well acquainted with Him, for there is not a soul of you but what has lived in His house and dwelt with Him year after year; and yet you are seeking to become acquainted with Him, when the fact is, you have merely forgotten what you did know....There is not a person here today but what is a son or a daughter of that Being" (Journal of Discourses, 4:216). The fact is though that the veil is as thick or thin as we make it be. We are the ones that determine which way it will be for the Lord has promised: "If thou shalt ask, thou shalt receive revelation upon revelation, knowledge upon knowledge, that thou mayest know the mysteries and peaceable things - that which bringeth joy, that which bringeth life eternal." (D&C 42:61)

Now that we are here, some of us are struggling to remain great. President Harold B. Lee warned that 'there were many who were foreordained ...to a greater state than they have prepared themselves for here. Even though they might have been among the noble and great...they may fail of that calling here in mortality' (Ensign, January 1974, p 5) It would seem it all depends on whether we are converted. We might have a testimony and a conviction of the gospel but we might not be converted, meaning our basic nature is not changing to reflect that of a Christ like person. It is one thing to be convinced of the truthfulness of the gospel and another to hunger and thirst after righteousness and allow it to change our hearts and our nature. It is one thing to know the commandments and another to have them 'written in our hearts' (Mosiah 13:11). We are here not only to achieve but also to be true and even add to our greatness that we brought with us. The gospel of Jesus Christ is designed to help us become as gods, namely the Father and the Son in whom is all perfection. We are not here to merely make deposits into 'some heavenly account' by doing good deeds (Elder Dallin H. Oaks, The Challenge to Become, New Era Aug 2002). To be converted means to 'become'. With conversion comes the desire to live according to God's plan. It is then that all feelings of compulsion to choose the right flee and the path to eternal life becomes easier. Following King Benjamin's memorable sermon, his people ".....cried with one voice, saying: Yea, we believe all the words which thou hast spoken unto us; and also, we know of their surety and truth, because of the Spirit of the Lord Omnipotent, which has wrought a mighty change in us, or in our hearts, that we have no more disposition to do evil, but to do good continually." (Mosiah 5:2) This is true conversion. How much easier is it to live God's plan when you have no more disposition to do evil? The path to this conversion lies in yielding our hearts to God continually and being worthy of the Spirit which can sanctify us and change us. As we change and get closer to God, the veil thins and we become aligned with our true greatness. The aim is not to just return home but to return home being great. The Saviour of all mankind realised his greatness and has paved the way. May we walk in his footsteps for He is the light, the truth, the way.

Sunset and evening star,
And one clear call for me
And may there be no moaning of the bar,
When I put out to sea.
But such a tide as moving seems asleep,
Too full for sound and foam,
When that which drew from out the boundless deep
Turns again home.
Twilight and the evening bell,
And after that the dark!
And may there be no sadness of farewell,
When I embark:
For tho' from out of bourne of time and place
The flood may bear me far,
I hope to see my Pilot face to face
When I have crossed the bar.

-  Lord Alfred Tennyson

SAUL, THE REBELLIOUS

"For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of the Lord, he hath also rejected thee from being king". (1 Samuel 15:23)

Even though rejected by His people as their king (1 Sam 8:7), the Saviour, whose mercy knows no bounds, ever honouring man's free-agency, ensured that the king that was appointed over Israel was the best that could be found (1 Sam 9:15,16), so He chose Saul, 'a choice young man' for 'there was not among the children of Israel a goodlier person than he' (1 Sam 9:2). By all accounts Saul, a Benjamite, was the perfect candidate for the first king of Israel. When he was chosen, Saul was: obedient (1 Sam 9:3), diligent and reliable (1 Sam 9:4), full of faith (1 Sam 9:10), humble (1 Sam 9:21, 10:16, 10:22) and forgiving (1 Sam 10:27, 11:13). It took Saul just two years to lose who he was and become a proud, vindictive man with exaggerated opinion of his power and importance. Through his disobedience he repeatedly showed lack of faith in God and disregard for following God's instructions with exactness. From this disobedience grew pride and from pride came reliance on his own wisdom and power to solve problems. You might say the power 'went to his head'.

Saul is the perfect example of someone who makes serious blunders when they rely on their own wisdom and importance rather than relying on God in matters that really matter. Saul's blunders were not just blunders but outright disobedience that cost him the throne and the kingdom the Lord had given him to rule. There were two acts of disobedience that were proportionate to the cost Saul paid for his disobedience. The first involved Israel's long standing warfare with the Philistines. The Lord chose Saul for the express purpose of saving Israel 'out of the hand of the Philistines' (1Sam 9:16). When he had reigned over Israel for two years, Philistines had 'gathered themselves together to fight with Israel' (1Sam 13:5) yet again. Their army was so formidable that Saul's men scattered in fright into caves and thickets and in rocks and in high places and in pits (1Sam 13:6). Saul watched as his army diminished from 3,000 to 600 men. He waited seven days for Samuel to come as he indicated he would, to offer a burnt offering ensuring success in battle. As Samuel showed no signs of appearing Saul decided that as he was king he would take matters into his own hands by offering the burnt offering himself. Not only was this a grievous sin as he did not hold the priesthood authority to do so, but he clearly showed no trust in God that He would assure Israel's victory no matter what. So Saul decided to trust in himself instead. As Samuel appeared and  asked him what he had done, Saul offered a feeble excuse that many of us offer when caught in the act of disobedience. He said 'I forced myself' (1 Sam 13:12). In other words, my hand was forced, the Philistines twisted my arm. This sounds like a lot of us who blame others for the choices that we make.

His second major act of disobedience occurred when Samuel sent him on a mission to destroy the Amalekites. There was no ambiguity or complexity in the instructions given to Saul: "Now go and smite Amalek, and utterly destroy all that they have, and spare them not; but slay both man and woman, infant and suckling, ox and sheep, camel and ass" (1 Sam 15:3). One could understand if he had perhaps spared the children but "Saul and the people spared Agag (the king), and the best of the sheep and of the oxen, and of the fatlings, and the lambs, and all that was good and would not utterly destroy them: but everything that was vile and refuse, that they destroyed utterly" (1 Sam 15:9). What was his excuse for not obeying with exactness? Saul thought he knew better than the Lord and reasoned with Samuel, "We kept the best of the animals for sacrifice and the rest we have utterly destroyed" (1 Sam 15:17). In other words, we thought we would do one better than what the Lord commanded so "we almost kept the commandment". Samuel's reply was classic, "Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice" (1 Sam 15:22). The Lord would rather have the obedience than excuses which would in the end have to come to repentance. Saul's excuses did not end there, he went on to blame the people who 'took of the spoil' (1Sam 15:21) "because he feared the people and obeyed their voice" (1 Sam 15:24). This is not a leader who would master a kingdom and lead others to God for he feared the people more than he feared God. Much like our politicians who want to please the people so they would be kept in power. And much like us today who like Saul offer excuses all day long as to why we 'almost' kept the commandments: someone twisted my arm, I thought this would be better, I didn't want to offend my friends, I almost obeyed.

Saul stands in sharp contrast to his son Jonathan and his friend David. Both of the youths surpassed Saul in their faith in God of Israel and they acted according to that faith. Fearless, Jonathan attacked Philistines' garrison of 20 men with just his armour bearer and slaughtered them sending trembling amongst the people and caused the earth to quake (1 Sam 14:12-15). His reasoning? "....there is no restraint to the Lord to save by many or by few" (1 Sam 14:6). In other words, it doesn't matter who many the Lord has to work with, the power is His and He'll get it done. Even before he charged at the garrison, he knew the victory was assured and that if the Lord worked with them, the two of them could defeat the entire Philistine army for he said to his armour bearer: "Come up after me: for the Lord hath delivered them into the hand of Israel" (1 Sam 14:12).

David, a mere shepherd boy, already chosen by God and anointed by Samuel to be the next king, was amazed, like Jonathan, that the army of the living God could fear anything. When sent to the Israelite camp by his father to deliver victuals to his brothers who served in Saul's army, David witnessed Goliath proposing a single combat with Israel. David's courageous response to the fear that was gripping skilled soldiers around him was one of derision: "For who is this uncircumcised Philistine, that he should defy the armies of the living God?" (1 Sam 17:26). When his brother accused him of pride rather than recognizing his bravery, David responded valiantly: "Is there not a cause (in Israel)?" (1 Sam 17:29). Where did David get such courage? Firstly, he was very skilled with the sling. "In defense of his father Jesse's flocks he had taken down a bear and a lion. The sling was a deadly weapon in the ancient world: it was said that the secret weapon of Hannibal of Carthage was his 1,000 Spanish slingers who could spray an enemy with bullets from a hundred yards. Saul probably knew the power of the sling, or he would not have allowed David to put the entire kingdom in jeopardy in single combat with Goliath. David was prepared for this encounter". (Breck England, Old Testament Lesson 22, Meridian Magazine). So David was skilled to take down Goliath but his fundamental source of courage was his trust in the Lord. His retort to Goliath who was offended that a mere youth was sent to slay him affirmed that faith: "Thou comest to me with a sword, and with a spear, and with a shield: but I come to thee in the name of the Lord of hosts, the God of the armies of Israel, whom thou has defied" (1 Sam 17:45).

Back in the beginning before Saul became king, when he was a 'choice young man', as a tall, strapping youth, he was sent out one day by his father to find his lost donkeys (1 Sam 9:3). Saul searched with his servant but could not find them anywhere. When he was just about to return home, his servant told him that Samuel the prophet lived nearby and that they should seek him out for advice and help (1 Sam 9:6). So Saul went to Samuel and thereby fulfilled the Saviour's promise of the previous day that He would send Samuel the man who should be king (1 Sam 9:15,16). This story has great meaning. In ancient Near East "kings were often depicted as riding donkeys. In its stubborn refusal to do its master's will, the donkey symbolized the king's errant subjects - and therefore the necessity for a strong royal hand. The stubbornnes and disobedience of Israel were legendary. They had already in a sense rejected the kingship of the Lord by demanding a mortal king, so it is appropriate that the Lord sent a man like Saul to seek out the 'donkeys' - that is, to corral them and rule them. It is also appropriate that Saul should ask for the prophet's help to find them." (Breck England, Old Testament Lesson 22, Meridian Magazine).  If Saul had only lived true to the symbolism of this incident in his life he would not have lost his throne. Instead Samuel's warning to the people rang true as he failed in his stewardship. One thing he did do well though. He proved that there is only one true king worth following. This true King entered the holy city of Jerusalem riding on a donkey a week before the Crucifixion. A great crowd laid palm leaves before Him symbolizing submission to royalty. By this they acknowledged in Him the great King who would master Israel as a man masters the stubborn animal he rides. The symbolism of the Lord riding upon a donkey was not lost on the people of Jerusalem and it should not be lost on us for He truly is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.

Like Saul, if we are not ever vigilant, we stand to lose the throne by our disobedience. The Lord has said: "To him that overcometh will I grant to sit with me in my throne, even as I also overcame, and am set down with my Father in his throne." (Rev. 3:21) We stand to gain the whole splendor of eternity by being obedient. If we have erred, all is not lost for there is hope. The Lord stands with his hand outstretched, in His never failing mercy, willing to take us back: "For all this His anger is not turned away but His hand is stretched out still" (Isaiah 10:4) We have been bought with a great price for our worth is great in the sight of God. If you have wandered, know that you are loved still. He awaits and beckons: "Be faithful and diligent in keeping the commandments of God, and I will encircle thee in the arms of my love". (D&C 6:20)

WE KNOW NOT

"There once was a village that had among its people a very wise old man. The villagers trusted this man to provide them answers to their questions and concerns.

One day, a farmer from the village went to the wise man and said in a frantic tone, "Wise man, help me. A horrible thing has happened. My ox has died and I have no animal to help me plow my field! Isn't this the worst thing that could have possibly happened?" The wise old man replied, "Maybe so, maybe not". The man hurried back to the village and reported to his neighbours that the wise man had gone mad. Surely this was the worst thing that could have happened. Why couldn't he see this?

The very next day, however, a strong, young horse was seen near the man's farm. Because the man had no ox to rely on, he had the idea to catch the horse to replace his ox - and he did. How joyful the farmer was. Plowing the field had never been easier. He went back to the wise man to apologize. "You were right, wise man. Losing my ox wasn't the worst thing that could have happened. You must agree that this is the best thing that could have happened". The wise man replied once again, "Maybe so, maybe not". Not again, thought the farmer. Surely the wise man had gone mad now.

But, once again, the farmer did not know what was to happen. A few days later the farmer's son was riding the horse and was thrown off. He broke his leg and would not be able to help with the crop. Oh no, thought the man. Now we will starve to death. Once again, the farmer went to the wise man. This time he said, "How did you know that capturing my horse was not a good thing? You were right again. My son is injured and won't be able to help with the crop. This time I'm sure that this is the worst thing that could have possibly happened. You must agree this time". But, just as he had done before, the wise man calmly looked at the farmer and in a compassionate tone replied once again, "Maybe so, maybe not". Enraged that the wise man could be so ignorant, the farmer stormed back to the village.

The next day troops arrived to take every able-bodied man to the war that had just broken out. The farmer's son was the only young man in the village who didn't have to go. He would live, while others would surely die."
-  Author Unknown


Some years ago while I worked at the Church Office, a group of us were discussing whether we had a choice of being born into the Church or not. The general opinion was that it is not fair that some are born into such choice circumstances whilst others are thrown into the deep end. The prevailing conclusion seemed to be that if we were presented with this choice everyone would have chosen to be born into the Church to righteous parents smack middle in Zion and thus have an easier life. I was of the opinion then and still am that this is a very narrow minded view of the matter. I do not agree that we all wanted to be born into perfect circumstances thus assuring an easy life. My view was and still is, that back then what we wanted most was to receive the maximum amount of personal growth during our mortal experience and because of it we agreed to all the trials and problems we could possibly endure. We did not want an easy ride else what would be the point? We might as well have stayed where we were, remaining children, never reaching adulthood. However, that was not the case. We were not one of the third of hosts of heaven who sought to avoid hardship wanting a life of ease. We were the valiant ones who planned our path to godhood with unsurpassed valour and we stood up to the forces of evil that threatened that plan convinced that the Saviour we chose could and would bring us home. The fact that we are here today is proof of our victory.

I love the above story because it teaches us three things:

1. Something good always comes out of something bad. One of our greatest earthly challenges is not being able to see past the corner. We cannot tell where our trials are leading us. Sometimes what we consider a misfortune is in reality a clearing exercise for something better to take place, as this story so aptly illustrates. Sometimes the only but the most important thing that comes from our trials is our personal growth. When I got divorced I thought, very much like this farmer, that my divorce was the worst possible thing that could have happened to me until my daughter went on the path of self-destruction and I had to change my mind. Eighteen years ago I could not foresee the personal growth I would experience as a result of the wrong turn my life had taken. Whereas I would never recommend divorce to anyone for numerous reasons, this trial in my life has proved to be of profound advantage to me. Because we are all so eager to avoid pain, we fail to see trials as blessings. Any misfortune, no matter, how advantageous to our growth is always considered a bad deal.

2. To appreciate the sweet in our lives, we have to experience the bitter. There can never be a fullness of joy without first going through sorrow. For many years I could not understand this scripture: "Adam fell that men might be; and men are that they might have joy" (2 Nephi 2:25). I reasoned that this scripture was wrong and that Adam's purpose had somehow gone awry for how could we be men of joy when there is so much suffering here?   Now that I understand mortality a bit better, the meaning of this scripture is a bit clearer to me. The whole point of Adam's fall is not just for us to experience mortality but for us to arrive to godhood. We were never promised fulfillment and true joy in this life, only moments of happiness. The joy, I believe, will come when we have been made complete through the power of redemption and resurrection. Then we will be made perfect because of our tribulations in this life over which we had gained victory. We will look back at what we had accomplished and we will have joy because of it, forever after. The extent of sorrow and suffering we go through in this life is the measure of joy we will experience when we are crowned with glory for having endured and overcome and arrived to become what we always wanted to be.

3.  Trials are a necessary fabric of this life because through them we develop true faith and trust in God. It is a sad fact that man would never turn to God if his life was a bed of roses. We too, like the villagers in the story, need 'a very wise old man' who we can trust to provide us with answers to out questions and concerns. The harder your life, the closer you will get to God. If your trials are not of your making due to sin, then you have to have faith that they are a part of the individualized plan for your earthly life. Some people believe that we have come here to experience random situations and hardships and that some escape them and some don't and all that matters is how we deal with them. I do not believe that. I am of firm belief that there was a careful individualized plan made for each of us in our pre-existence according to growth that we each needed. If everything was random and had no rhyme or reason, then some of us would miss out on certain trials we needed because some of us know how to duck better than others. We are all different and we all need different things. We all came here with certain qualities already developed whilst lacking others. I might not need to go through a certain trial that my daughter for instance needs because that trial might offer understanding and growth that I already have so there is no need for me to experience that situation. She on the other hand might not need something I have to go through. The crucial thing here is to know and believe that God's plan is unfolding for you and to be accepting of that plan. Until the veil is taken away and we can once again see the past, present and future, we have to live by faith and trust that what we are enduring now is a masterpiece in progress. This is beautifully expressed in the following poem:

My life is but a weaving
Between my God and me.
I let Him choose the colours,
He worketh steadily.

Oft times he worketh sorrow
And I in foolish pride,
Forget He sees the pattern
While I see the under side.

Not till the loom is silent
And the shuttles cease to fly,
Shall God unroll the canvas
And explain the reason why,

The dark threads were as needful
In the Weaver's skillful hand,
As the threads of gold and silver
In the pattern He had planned.

- Anonymous

If you are being stretched and tested to the limit and your life seems unfair and overwhelming, know that the Saviour of this world is making something wonderful of you. You are a masterpiece in the making. He had descended below all things that He might rise above all things and take you with Him. Do not give up and end up an unfinished product, a piece of art undone. There is no need to feel you cannot do it for the Saviour's grace can get you home. Allow Him to weave the pattern of your life to perfection. Trust in Him and in His power to carry you when you cannot walk alone. Godhood comes at a price. The furnace is hot but the refining is worth it.

"For behold, I have refined thee, I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction". (1 Nephi 20:10)

UPON MY HONOUR

"....I seek not for honor of the world but for the glory of my God....." (Alma 60:36)


Soon after my divorce I moved with my children into a new ward. My new Bishop invited me into his office one Sunday for an interview to get to know me and welcome me. In the course of our interview I expressed to him that even though I had been faithful from the time of my baptism at 18 years of age, I had come to the conclusion that I had ruined my life. At that time my reality did not resemble the picture that my patriarchal blessing painted. I worried that I had done it all wrong and that it was beyond repair. My Bishop asked me to fast the following Sunday and meet with him again for a priesthood blessing. As I sat in his office with his hands upon my head, I was told something I did not expect to hear. In my Bishop's words I was told: "Your life was planned for you in your pre-existence and because of your great faith in Christ you had accepted that plan". As I mulled over what I had heard in the coming weeks, months and years I came to understand that I had not read between the lines of my patriarchal blessing but had only seen the idyllic outline of end results that would culminate in my life if I was faithful. To get to those idyllic pinnacles, however, I would need to tread some thorny paths. How I travelled those paths was totally up to me but one thing was for sure, I had a tremendous tool to survive the thorns that would afflict me on my way, which was my abiding faith in Christ that I had brought with me. Some months following that priesthood blessing, I had a confirmation of that faith as I sat in Stake Conference singing my favourite hymn, The Redeemer of Israel. A vision opened up in my mind that enabled me for a few seconds to see myself as I was in pre-existence, preaching the plan of salvation to the less converted. Over the years I have had occasion to reflect on these two incidents to strengthen me as I tackled the challenges of my life. Recently I was speaking with a friend of mine whose life also had not turned out the way he had imagined it would and he said to me that his only concern now is to remain as valiant in his second estate as he was in his first and that nothing else matters to him. That, I said to him, is really the only thing that truly matters, to remain true to God we once voted for and engaged in battle for.

Perhaps the saddest words uttered by the Saviour in relation to ancient Israel is his reply to Samuel who felt dejected when the Israelites rejected Him as their judge and requested that a king be appointed over them. Samuel warned them of three principal evils of a kingly form of government: excessive taxation (1 Sam 8:15,17), conscription of the labour force (1 Sam 8:11,13,16) and seizure of private lands (1 Sam 8:14,15). The lure of the world seemed to outweigh the warning though as Israelites persisted in their desire to have a king. The Saviour who had fought for them and stood with open arms at every turn conceded their rejection to Samuel: "Hearken unto the voice of the people in all that they say unto thee: for they have not rejected thee, but they have rejected me, that I should not reign over them" (1 Sam 8:7). I cannot begin to imagine with what heaviness of heart the Saviour would have uttered those words. They who stood to become 'a kingdom of priests and a holy nation' (Exodus 19:6) desired that they 'may be like all the nations', that their king might fight their battles for them (1 Sam 8:19,20). Imagine wanting an imperfect human being at the helm of your armies instead of God who has all might and power. A God who had manifested that power to them over and over, whose reputation was so great even among the heathen nations who trembled at the thought of the God of Israel (1 Sam 4:5-8). And so Israel sought to honour the world rather than to honour the one true and living God. And so it is with us. We, modern day Israel, at times choose to honour the world over honouring God. In President Kimball's words:

"Samuel called the people together and explained to them that the people of the Lord should be different, with higher standards. 'We want to be like other people' they demanded. We do not want to be different... Not so different are we today! We want the glamour and frothiness of the world, not always realizing the penalties of our folly.....Others....indulge in their social drinking - 'we must have a king like unto other nations'. Styles are created by the vulgar and the money-mad and run from one extreme to the other to date our present wardrobes and create business for merchants. We cannot be different. We would rather die than be 'not up to date'. If the dress is knee length, we must go a little above the knee. If shorts are short we must have the shortest...If bathing suits are skimpy, we must have the skimpiest. We must have a king like unto other nations. The Lord has said that he will have a peculiar people but we do not wish to be peculiar... If intimate fondling is the pattern of the crowd, we will fondle. We must have a king like unto other nations.... When oh when, will the Latter-day Saints stand firm on their own feet, establish their own standards, follow proper patterns and live their own glorious lives in accordance with Gospel inspired patterns...Certainly good times and happy lives and clean fun are not dependent upon the glamorous, the pompous, the extremes" (Elder Spencer W. Kimball, "Like All the Nations", Church News, 15 October 1960, 14).

When we honour the world instead of God, we are not only endangering our own spiritual welfare but that of others too. As sons and daughters of Him who has spiritually begotten us through the covenant of baptism, we have a sacred responsibility to the inhabitants of the world, a responsibility we fail in when we join the world instead of remaining separate. This responsibility lies within the Abrahamic covenant. Consider the following:

"This challenge can remain a stumbling block for Abraham's seed today. The temptation to be 'like all the nations' is ever present. The standards and images of the world are not to become the ideals of Abraham's seed. The Old Testament in particular offers a warning to the Lord's covenant people of today as it chronicles the people of the past. In it we see the results of failing to bless all the families of the world because one desires to be like the world. Eventually Abraham's seed were lost, scattered, and taken captive by the world they so anxiously tried to imitate. (S. Michael Wilcox, "The Abrahamic Covenant", Ensign, Jan. 1998, 47)

We are of the seed of Abraham. We are noble men and women of the covenant. We are choice in the sight of God for we have been bought with a great price. We have a responsibility to heed the admonition of Alma who said '....come ye out from the wicked, and be ye separate, and touch not their unclean things...' (Alma 5:57) that we may remain God's people, that our names will not be mingled with the names of the wicked (Alma 5:57), that we may be an ensign to the nations and bring them to God who gave them life. If we strive to honour God instead of honouring the world, we will remain true to the testimony of Jesus that we brought with us. The scriptures teach us that honour includes faith and trust in the Lord through humility and obedience to His commandments but it goes further than that. It is important that we recognise the systems of the world that we easily follow and that have the potential to lead us away from putting our trust in God. It means to remain honourable without compromise. It means not to trust in any other external force to aid us in our trials, our challenges and our attempts to rise above the world. And rise we must to honour the God of Israel. We are here to conquer the enemy of all righteousness (Moroni 9:6). We fought this enemy who sought to take away the honour and glory from the Father. We are still fighting this enemy today. We cannot fail. We must not fail. In President Hinckley's words:

"The war goes on. It is waged across the world over the issues of agency and compulsion. It is waged by an army of missionaries over the issues of truth and error. It is waged in our own lives, day in and day out, in our homes, in our work, in our school associations; it is waged over questions of love and respect, of loyalty and fidelity, of obedience and integrity. We are all involved in it - child, youth, or adult, each of us. We are winning, and the future never looked brighter" (President Gordon B. Hinckley, 'An Unending Conflict, A Victory Assured', Ensign, June 2007, p 4).

".....for them that honour me I will honour, and they that despise me shall be lightly esteemed" (1 Sam 2:30)