IN WHOM WE TRUST

 

I had an advantageous experience this morning I would like to share. In search of something, I opened YouTube and the first thing I saw was an advertisement for AI that went like this: If you spend your first 10 minutes upon waking each day with AI, you won’t recognise yourself in a month.

I was so taken aback with it that I didn’t listen to more. I don’t know much about AI so I don’t know what claim to advantages AI can make but I know the warnings that we have been given by our leaders and so I am following that. I have no interest in AI, especially since I am no longer in the workforce and cannot see the need for it in my life.

I know who I would rather spend my first 10 moments with upon awakening and here is how I know. Almost immediately as I closed YouTube I received one of the greatest revelations I have had in the past year I have suffered from bad physical health.

All my life I have had a strong sense of justice to the point that it robbed me to a great degree of mercy. I recognised this in myself years ago and always thought it was mercy towards others that I lacked but this morning I was shown different.

This morning I recognised that it was needful for me to experience my greatest weakness through bad health to see that I lacked mercy towards myself. I have been hard on myself my whole life and have always felt not good enough. It has a lot to do with my upbringing but I won’t go into that.

This morning I could see so plainly that my greatest need for mercy was for my humanity. And you cannot experience that a better way than through physical senses because having a body is what makes us human. As this revelation came upon me, the tears flowed and then another realisation.

This revelation could not have come from any external source but only from the spiritual connection I have with the Saviour as one of His disciples. Only from Him…..because He is the one that received a glimpse into my human experience and my soul so that He would know how to ‘succor me according to my infirmities’ (Alma 7:12).

This morning gave me the greatest 10 minutes of my life. All honour, glory and praise be to my Saviour who has given me a portion of His mercy that I might know myself and through it show love to the person who right now needs it the most, me. In a month, I won’t know myself….

You have fed me from the banquet of your love;

Your arms have cradled me

in the eye of the heaviest storm;

You have led me to reach the heights of faith

to me unknown.

You are my Sovereign,

My wings of protection from the cold,

My eagle in flight

To pilot me home.

- CATHRYNE ALLEN 

(Art: In Solemn Prayer by Greg Collins)